I wonder why I felt like blogging all of a sudden. Blogging -

After so long... The first time that i actually talked to her, She was so down... Just by chatting with her, I can feel the pain within her. I would rather be the one suffering. It hurts me more just to watch.

Out of nowhere
She asked Me when I will be going to Ns...
I answered her... Its not really important for you to know.
She said its important as I'm someone important to her
I laugh...
As... I was never important to anyone.

Dont tell me that I'm important, As I no longer feel it anymore.

There was once when I felt happy. Yea really happy... Finally felt what its like to be important, But that turn out all to be crap... I realised, that I was just being used... I was thrown away just like rubbish... I was never important.

Its ok... I'm really used to it. The sad things are there to make us stronger eh? How much more sad things must I overcome to be really strong... I wonder.

I'm always hiding my words... my thoughts and my feelings inside myself, I'm at a loss to what I can really say... Do I have the right to say anything in the first place? I can only watch.

If a human can get rid of all his feelings, memories and thoughts... That would be the perfect thing for me to do seriously. I want to get rid of those badly.

Breaking free... Soon, the day when I really break free will soon arrive. Looking forward to it.
The day when I finally break free... even from my family.

Really like Tsubasa anime,manga and sound track. Its like wow... Its rare to find a story that makes your heart cry. First understand it... and you will enjoy every part of it.

Learn to love before you asked for love. If can... I want to protect the one I love, with all the strength I got... Dont hurt her -