Fight for the things that makes you happy...

Maybe, I should just stop hurting the people thats around me. Will things still be the same if I try hard enough? Confused and stress -

jing tian - ni xiang wo ti chu fen shou, wo ye da ying le... ke neng zhe yang zhuo, cai shi dui ni zui gong ping de - bu zhi bu jue yi jing guo le na me jiu... wo xiang wo cong lai dou mei you jing wo de ben fen. wo yi zhi yi lai ye mei you guai gou ni, ying wei... wen ti chu zai wo zi ji. xiang dui ni shuo shen dui bu qi, xiang xing ni yi ding hui zhao dao yi ge bi wo hao yi bai bei, huo yi qian bei de ren - hen gao xing ren shi ni (:

Did I do the right thing by letting you go?
I guess - Its only fair.

Its hard learning to let things go, especially the things that is important to you.

>_0 take cares.

What can I still say? Nothing-

Ohana- No one gets left behind when it comes to family. `[._.]` the meaning of blockhead? anyone understand it?

Regret for asking you change IGN, maybe i should hav stick with my old IGN instead... maybe... the whole thing is my fault, sorry for asking your change IGN, Gomenasai - whats the point now? A promise is a promise... since I had said it, I will do it. Daijobu- I will change my IGN and remove that blockhead - I wanna be the one thats being left behind... I understand. jaa nahs. I will go-

Ps. Bad mood for today... dao-ed jie the entire game, she deleted everyone from buddy and change IGN to make everyone look for her... when I found her, she said its was not fun at all as I had found her easily. i told myself... its not fun, not fun at all, proceed to delete her off my buddy... I said to her : "since you don't want anyone to find you... i shall stop finding you anymore." sayonara-

Sleep- hope I can sleep on forever, don't bother me... Just leave me alone.

your totally different from her... maybe, too different... not someone i will like - and I'm not someone you will like. Maybe... Its time you stop calling me dear, it will be unfair to you as we belongs to 2 different world - take care. -

whee ~ Changed my pangya IGN... kinda miss my old one ): lols, ppl hav been pming me with stuff like "whats your previous ign?" "who are you?" "are you P1G?" ... hmmz maybe I've changed my IGN too much le bahs... too much till they don't know. I'm currently `[._.]`Zai-Jutsu, Ohana rox ! (:

Guild battle rox... had fun wif the battles (: challenging. This is freaky ._. 4 times vs 19th hole 4 times my opponent is kaka. plain weird... lols ._. game system like to pair us both =P went to MeoW tour today ... >< dun noe how I came in first... cheated using my main account while the others using rookies. haiz =/

Feelings ._. Heart =/ ... I guess... the cut will always remain deep in my heart, no matter how hard I tried... I'm not able to do it, I'm weak... why am I weak? because... your not around with me anymore... I lost... not to anyone, but to myself... oh sheesh, parry your one big loser ! nahz... its ok... (: I'm forever a loser. =/

My eyes hurt ._. is it due to gaming too much or? ... haiz I had no idea, chatted with angel mei a few days back, she can sense that I'm not alright =/ Thanks for being on my side.... thanks for being there for me when I needed someone ): stay happy always kays (:

I remembered the first time I told you I like you, april fool day... which you took it as a joke. I remembered... the first time I sent you back home... (: it took me 2 days before I finally gathered enough courage to do that. I remembered the first gift i gave you... A drawing which I drew... I remembered the first time you cried infront of me... I vowed to love only you. I remembered the day I told you that I'll give you up... and gave you a 4 leaf clover necklace for luck in everything you do, I remembered the last xmas present I gave you... Stars folded just for you and you alone. My love for you never changed... but, you don't belongs to me anymore... I'm left alone, here... in this world with only myself to blame.

Blur vision... why water kept coming out from my eyes? ... water fell from my eyes as my heart kept bleeding... I hate myself ):

I'm sorry... I've hurt you, I promised... there won't be a next time... Gomenasai ):

As... everything is too late now... =/

ARGH... I'm getting real sick of life, boring boring boring... everythings is boring for me. I got sick of pangya, got sick of my guild got sick of everythings that around me. DAM !

Freaking hell... today log in pangya only play 1 18h vs wif vin. 18h ss 40 sec, won wif a score of -24 to -22 (: normally i would hav spam 18h vs from afternoon till night... recently juz dun hav the mood to do so. =.= MY exp intake is so dam SLOW now... AHHH how the hell am i suppose to catch up wif sebas and be the next semi pro B. gay =.=

I've no reason to feel jealous... Your not meant to be mine right from the start, why am I still holding on to you? I can't let you go ): only me myself knows how much I'm missing you... Life sucks without you... argh. If only i hav the courage to tell you how i feel... maybe things would hav been different, maybe... he wont be the one thats beside you right now...

Your not her... I can't be so selfish as to... take you for her? I dun noe, sometimes you juz remind me of her. I don't know what your thinking at times... what your doing really confuse me. I'm trying hard to forget her >< but... I don't know if its worth it or not. whatever... I may juz be a nobody to you anyway. =/ maybe... your not what I expect you to be.

Its easy to fall in love but its hard to forget... ):

I will always be right here waiting for you... as always (: